I think the most surprising thing from your post is that you used the word “dude” 😛
I always wanted to speak perfectly, and as you know, my speech is far from perfect. I speak fast, I rattle on and on etc. One day, I started realizing how “badly” fluent people speak. They could not care less if they hesitate, repeat words, forget words, repeat sounds etc.
The more I started realizing that everybody’s speech is imperfect, and more importantly that NOBODY cares about my speech as they have more important things to focus on, the more I stopped caring what people thought and started accepting that I will never have perfect speech, and neither will anybody else in the world…. AND THAT IS OKAY!!!